Monday, August 07, 2006
At this eerie time of the day, everyone should be in their comfortable beds, sleeping soundly, sleeping like a log, sleeping like a kid. in short, just plain sleeping. but here i am, chatting about inane stuffs with my friends, slacking here and there when i am supposed to do something!
talking about doing something, i actually feel bad. 'cause that something is supposed to be something that i need to do for the group. saying about group, all the more i feel bad. Apparently, i am not contributing something for the group. something that is useful, something that will help them in this Primer 3, something that is productive. sigh. even the leader is being sarcastic to me. i mean i really want to contribute something. but it is like all the job are being taken being my fellow comrades in arms so cant exactly blame me right? excuses, some of ya might be thinking right now, why can't i offer a helping hand then?! i tried but not that talent in drawing and my female comrade ,in charge of the model making, wants everything to be prefect. opps! i promised my dear senior, who happens to practise favourtism, i will try my very best to draw! thus, i will put my heart into drawing. OW!!! so sad right? that means i cannot whine in my blog of not having the ability to draw nice nice and oh-so-beautiful drawings! *dear jerelyn, i DO hope that you are reading this, although you dun have my address yet.* anyway, my this dear little cute senior is currently single. for those who wish to know her, can leave your message on my tagboard and i will ask her to get back to you shortly.
Ok, back to my topic! thus, that is the reason why i dun like group work. i mean if i dun do work, i will feel bad and feel that i am useless in the group and when i asked around, they said never mind never mind, so what am i supposed to do? i think it is the feeling of guilt of nothing accomplishing anything when i am supposed to accomplish one thing. therefore, i am spending my time in studio practically doing nothing.... i also want to fork out a bit of something for the group but like the chinese phrase goes, "心有余而力不足" i dunno how to translate it into english. so those english people kindly leave the translation at the tagboard.
ok! shant talk anymore! MODEL, HERE I COME!!!
fuck you x=
8/07/2006 02:07:00 AM
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